Anonymous asked: i've cheated on my boyfriend so many times and i don't know why, i love him and he loves me but half the time he trys to control me which is why i think i rebel and kiss other boys because i can and he won't ever find out. I never felt guilt about it and now, now that he's being so lovely to me i just find myself pushing him away, crying every night on how much I'm such an idiot. i can't confront it nor do i want to loose him. what the hell should i do?
For one, don’t say I love him and he loves me. If you loved him, you wouldn’t cheat. If he loved you, he wouldn’t control you. You have a completely dysfunctional relationship. It doesn’t matter if he’s decided to be nice now and you’ve decided not to cheat, what’s happened has happened. If you think you can both live with it, then okay, but it has to be brought up. Will it end in a breakup? Maybe. But there’s no point in living a lie that will only destruct and end in a breakup anyway.